Before I die..

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Hello my darlings.

How are you all? I hope that everything is going great for you and that you're having an amazing day. 

If you follow me on twitter, you might have noticed a tweet. 

Today morning didn't start great for me, I woke up crying like a baby and had an urge to call my grandfather to see if he was okay as he is very very sick. Perhaps you heard that some people see someone in their dreams, it feels like that person is saying their goodbyes, and when they wake up they get the news that someone has passed away. 
And that dream is so realistic, almost like it was really happening. 
And I know this because it has happened to me when my cousin passed away, and after that dream I've been, I don't know, scared isn't really the word but it's pretty close, that it was going to happen again. And that's what I thought today morning. I probably sound so silly right now, and you're wondering where this post is going. 

But I thought that it couldn't happen, you know, I didn't get enough time with my grandfather. And it's crazy how people can just be gone from your life, in seconds. Again, I probably sound extremely silly, it was just a dream after all! But it was kind of a wake up call for me. 

You definitely have heard of the Berkeley tragedy. Six Irish students have died after a balcony has collapsed. Few were left severely injured. And a girl that has survived has released a statement, in which she has spoken about her current state and how she was doing, but also said something that has really made me think.. 

'Enjoy a good dance and the feeling of grass beneath your feet like it's the last time because in this crazy world you never know when it might be' 

That is so so true. 

We don't know when something is going to happen. 
We don't know when we see someone that we might be seeing them for the last time that day. 
Or us doing something at the time is the last time that we will get the chance to do that something. 
I think we should appreciate a lot of things that we are going through right now. The good and the bad. Cause both leave us with a lesson. And I know that some situations are so horrible that no one would even want to think about it in a positive light. Like being abused, or losing someone very important in your life, or being involved in something very tragic and that's understandable, of course. 

I always try to make the most of what I'm going through. One day I remember I was on a walk with my friend and it was raining so heavily and I was sad but I was trying to be positive. And I remember him looking at me like I was absolutely crazy, because he knew I was super upset, yet I was pointing out how beautiful the beach we were walking on at the time was, and how amazing it looked when it rained, and how the sky was a pretty grey color and that the smell of the rain was just adding to the mood. 
I thought that I should focus on the good around me, not the bad. 

And I believe it is what we should do if we want to keep our sanity. 

The title of this post is going to be explained right now. 
'Before I die'? I think that I didn't say what I always wanted to say. 
If something happens and I die lets say tomorrow, I would leave nothing behind and whatever was in my head would have never left it. I wouldn't have said what I always wanted to say. And I hope you don't think that I'm just another teenager that has had the easiest life, no responsibilities, no struggles. Cause let me tell you my life was not full of unicorns and rainbows and glitter. I've went through a lot, and if I didn't, this post wouldn't be out there right now. 

But here, I will list everything that is on my mind. 

1. Love.

I believe that you can never say 'I love you' too many times. 
Love and love hard, don't hold yourself back. If you love someone go and tell them. So easy to say, obviously I'm not telling you to go up to your crush and go 'I LOVE YOU!' cause honestly I wouldn't do it either! But your parents, go up to them right now, call them, text them, tell them you love them. Your sisters and brothers, no matter how much you fight, you love them! I was like this with my sister, we fought so much but now, when I look at her I think that I'd be completely lost without her. Love others, love your family and friends and your pets. Everything around you but also love YOURSELF. 
You're given this one body, take care of it. Love every thing that is a part of you. It is perfectly normal to have insecurities, but lets be honest you are beautiful and there is NOTHING you should be insecure about. You are you, there is no one else out there that is you. Embrace it. Be body positive, be YOU positive. It honestly hurts me to see amazing people being insecure and full of self hatred. I feel like taking them out for coffee and talking to them, naming every beautiful thing about them. And giving them a big hug of course. 
So please, love others and tell them that every day, you never know when they might be gone. And love yourself, please. 

2. Be nice, have compassion.

Everyone is going/went through something that you might not know about please be nice. Even the people that are always smiling and laughing can be depressed, remember that.

3. Life is short. 

Life really is short. Laugh as loud as you can, love truly, forgive quickly, develop trust slowly and NEVER avoid something that makes you smile. Also, never regret doing something that made you happy. Even past relationships. You might not be with that person anymore but you were happy at the time, you smiled and laughed and loved. Never regret anything that made you happy. 
And if something is not making you happy do not be afraid to walk away from it. If you feel like you're not happy, something doesn't benefit you, or doesn't help you grow. Don't waste your time, move on. Don't live to make other people happy. For example your parents. You know it would make them happy if you became a doctor, but you want to be a fashion designer, don't go be a doctor! It is you that will have to be a doctor for the next 40 or 50 years of your life! If a doctor would make them happy, it might sound so rude but, why don't they go to school and become a doctor? You are the only person you will be with every day for the rest of your life. Do what makes you happy. Happiness is the most important thing in our lives. 

4. Encourage others.

Always be supportive of others. I have a friend that is thinking of a sex change. I know that it would make him happy, so I encourage him to do it. You want to dress like a girl for a day or two? It makes you happy? Do it! 
Be a loyal friend. Be a loyal girlfriend. Be a loyal wife! Why would you want to hurt the people that you love? 

6. Be honest. 

Always, always, ALWAYS be honest. No matter what it is about. Always be honest.

This is it for now, all that I can think of right now anyway. 
I just want to let all of you know that I am so so grateful for all of you. People who visit my blog every day, people who leave comments, people that watch my YouTube videos and leave feedback. I really am. 

As you're taking a breath right now, someone is taking their last, be thankful and appreciate. 

Much much love,

Boots and Primark Haul!

Thursday, June 25, 2015
Hey guys!!

So, once again, I did a thing on my YouTube channel..

If you'd like to see it, you can do it here! 

Much much love,

My Style Inspiration

Wednesday, June 17, 2015
Hello darlings!!

Today's post is going to be me trying to figure out my own style, cause honestly, I had one in my head, not really in my wardrobe! 

Maybe because I wore clothes that would hide my body shape cause I used to dislike the way I look way more than I do now. 
Of course, I dress differently than the people in my university, but it still wasn't quite me. 
But now, I thought 'Hey, these are the last few years of your teenage years, they wont happen again. You might as well wear whatever you want and however you want.'

I'm constantly struggling between my opinion vs someone else's. 
For example I feel better if I have my shirt slightly tucked into my jeans, but my mother tells me it doesn't look good. Or I love having curly hair but I heard once that I look 'disgusting' in them. Or I enjoy wearing dark lipstick but I hear that I look like an elderly woman. 

Whenever I try to stand up for myself, and say that it is what I feel comfortable in, I hear that I'm just being stupid. 
Anyone else gets that or is it just me?? 

Anyways, I decided to say F*&$ IT, F%*+ YOU. I WILL WEAR WHATEVER I WANT, EVEN IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT. 

I know my body shape doesn't allow me to wear some articles of clothing, for example my legs are wayy too big in my opinion to wear shorts. So I don't wear them, maybe if I go to sleep or just wear them around the house. Plus, my legs are too short to even wear shorts.

ANYWAY, here are a few photos that I spent about two hours looking for on Instagram. None of them are mine, all credit goes to owners of them. 

I'm gonna be honest here, I like when bits of my lace bras are showing? Only me? Maybe. Anyway, lately I've been seeing girls online wearing those type of bras, I think they look so so pretty! I definitely will buy a few of those, they look so feminine and cute. I literally can't say it enough. 

Loose shirts and tees.
I love those, they probably make me look bigger than I am but they are so so comfortable! I like my shoulders and collarbones showing (when they decide to come out, I swear my collar bones live their own lives) I think it looks cute and kinda romantic. I also love the way in which the girl in the bottom left hand corner, has the plaid shirt tied around her waist. It looks so pretty and quite casual. I like the loose cardigans, but not the thick ones, the light ones, the ones that feel cool on your skin when it's a bit windy outside on a summer evening. 

I'm also starting to be quite into the crop top and high waisted pants. I have a rather flattish stomach so it wouldn't look too tragic if I wore them paired together. 
I was walking around penneys the other day, and I seen so many pairs of jeans with huuge holes in them, and I was like yup, I like that. I will definitely be purchasing some of those! To me, crop top, high waisted pants and a long cardigan sound perfect! I must try it some day, and pair it with a bowler hat and round sunglasses. Oh that idea got me excited. 

Thigh high socks! Oh my! They look so so cute! I'd love to give them a shot. Maybe with a skirt, maybe with shorts. JEAN JACKETS, I need one!! They are so fun looking and they really go with anything! I own a few but they've gotten too big on me! I can't wait to go shopping in Poland, I hope I'll find everything I plan on buying!

This is it for today's post, and probably for this week. I'm getting my exam results on Friday and if they went really bad you won't be hearing from me in a while, I'd need some time to get my head around the entire situation. 
I hope you liked this post, maybe I'll do a few more of those! 

What are your style inspirations for this summer? Do you go for comfortable or do you listen to others when they tell you something doesn't suit you?

Thank you for reading!
Much much much much muuuuch love,

My NOT Boyfriend does my makeup..

Tuesday, June 16, 2015
Hey guys,

Soo, I did a thing on YouTube..
You can watch it here :) I hope you like it! Oh and watch in HD

Thank you for watching..
Much much love,

Rimmel London Colour Rush Balm, 'Give Me a Cuddle'

Saturday, June 13, 2015
Hey guys!!

I'm here with another lip post. This time I decided to try out the Rimmel Colour Rush Balm.

I don't usually use lip products from Rimmel, mainly because I don't like many of the colours that they have and because I never really got a chance to try any out. But when I was out shopping in my local pharmacy I decided to get a few swatches of the Colour Rush balms.

I loved the formula and the colours that were quite faint, but they could be built up if you want it them stand out more. They have a lovely smell to them, and they give the lips a nice shine. Also they are very moisturising which is great, especially for this weather. They are quite cheap as well, around 8 euro.

If I was asked if I recommended it to my readers, I definitely would. Here I give you a few photos.

I hope you liked the post, I will definitely do more of these lip posts!

Did you ever try these balms out? Did you like them? 

Thank you for reading! 
Much much love,

Two Weeks in Insta Photos

Monday, June 08, 2015
Hello my darlings,

I'm here with a very late post. I've been trying to upload my YouTube video, but my wifi is so horrible that it't taking absolute ages. I decided I'll do this post every two weeks, just to show you what I've been up to over the past two weeks. So... Let's get started.

Left to Right

On Friday two weeks ago I went to see 5 Seconds of Summer, as you probably already know. Here is a snap of Calum.. Oh boy..

A snap of my friend and I right after we finished our exams. Little throwback photo. 

 i-Envy lashes and Wet n Wild lipstick that I got for a makeup tag I am doing after being tagged by a few other bloggers. Should be up on my channel very soon.

A little breakfast, full of my favorite foods. Strawberries, raspberries, chocolate rice cake and green tea infused with more raspberries.

Stevie and I after he finished doing my makeup. Let's just say it looks.. Interesting..

A snap from the 5SOS concert with Ciaran. He bought himself the 'dickhead' glasses instead of the flower crowns that we planned to get first. 

Makeup look I filmed today! Should be up very soon also!

Late night sobbing party for one. 
I dont know why I do it to myself. 

 When Stevie came over for a visit, this was all we did. Other than making videos.

The Internet craze, it's very weird and I would not advise doing it. Here is a little humor to it.

Went to see Poltergeist with Stevie. and honestly I HATED IT. It was very boring and I laughed more than I was terrified. 

Blueberries are the nicest fruit in the world (Other than peaches of course)

My lips after swatching over 15 lip products, let me tell you. It stung a little bit! 

A throwback to the day I graduated Secondary School (High School). Proud but quite sad day to be honest. I kinda miss it. 

So what did you do anything interesting in the past two weeks? Tell me all about it in the comments!

Much much love,

Essence Lip Liner, 14 Femme Fatale

Tuesday, June 02, 2015
Hi darlings!!

I am back with another post showing you a new lip product! I'm thinking if this should be like a permanent post on this blog, one every week, showing you a new lip product. Not a bad idea eh?

Anyway, I present to you a lip liner from Essence! Literally my favourite lip liners ever! So pigmented and they are so easy to apply! Very soft. I especially love this red one. I looked for this particular shade of red for aages and I couldn't find it anywhere! I wanted a red that had a tiny bit of a blueish undertone, but not too much. I didn't want a purple kind of red lipstick that I already have from Isa Dora.

So of course, I would recommend this liner to my readers. I might do a giveaway with all the lip liners from the collection. But here are the pictures!

Much love,

5 Seconds of Summer VLOG!

Tuesday, June 02, 2015
Hello mah darlings,
As I said in the last post, I recorded a vlog when I went to the 5SOS concert and it's finally up! You can watch it here;

Hope you like it, even though it's so short!

Much love,