Hello my darlings.

How are you all? I hope that everything is going great for you and that you're having an amazing day. 

If you follow me on twitter, you might have noticed a tweet. 

Today morning didn't start great for me, I woke up crying like a baby and had an urge to call my grandfather to see if he was okay as he is very very sick. Perhaps you heard that some people see someone in their dreams, it feels like that person is saying their goodbyes, and when they wake up they get the news that someone has passed away. 
And that dream is so realistic, almost like it was really happening. 
And I know this because it has happened to me when my cousin passed away, and after that dream I've been, I don't know, scared isn't really the word but it's pretty close, that it was going to happen again. And that's what I thought today morning. I probably sound so silly right now, and you're wondering where this post is going. 

But I thought that it couldn't happen, you know, I didn't get enough time with my grandfather. And it's crazy how people can just be gone from your life, in seconds. Again, I probably sound extremely silly, it was just a dream after all! But it was kind of a wake up call for me. 

You definitely have heard of the Berkeley tragedy. Six Irish students have died after a balcony has collapsed. Few were left severely injured. And a girl that has survived has released a statement, in which she has spoken about her current state and how she was doing, but also said something that has really made me think.. 

'Enjoy a good dance and the feeling of grass beneath your feet like it's the last time because in this crazy world you never know when it might be' 

That is so so true. 

We don't know when something is going to happen. 
We don't know when we see someone that we might be seeing them for the last time that day. 
Or us doing something at the time is the last time that we will get the chance to do that something. 
I think we should appreciate a lot of things that we are going through right now. The good and the bad. Cause both leave us with a lesson. And I know that some situations are so horrible that no one would even want to think about it in a positive light. Like being abused, or losing someone very important in your life, or being involved in something very tragic and that's understandable, of course. 

I always try to make the most of what I'm going through. One day I remember I was on a walk with my friend and it was raining so heavily and I was sad but I was trying to be positive. And I remember him looking at me like I was absolutely crazy, because he knew I was super upset, yet I was pointing out how beautiful the beach we were walking on at the time was, and how amazing it looked when it rained, and how the sky was a pretty grey color and that the smell of the rain was just adding to the mood. 
I thought that I should focus on the good around me, not the bad. 

And I believe it is what we should do if we want to keep our sanity. 

The title of this post is going to be explained right now. 
'Before I die'? I think that I didn't say what I always wanted to say. 
If something happens and I die lets say tomorrow, I would leave nothing behind and whatever was in my head would have never left it. I wouldn't have said what I always wanted to say. And I hope you don't think that I'm just another teenager that has had the easiest life, no responsibilities, no struggles. Cause let me tell you my life was not full of unicorns and rainbows and glitter. I've went through a lot, and if I didn't, this post wouldn't be out there right now. 

But here, I will list everything that is on my mind. 

1. Love.

I believe that you can never say 'I love you' too many times. 
Love and love hard, don't hold yourself back. If you love someone go and tell them. So easy to say, obviously I'm not telling you to go up to your crush and go 'I LOVE YOU!' cause honestly I wouldn't do it either! But your parents, go up to them right now, call them, text them, tell them you love them. Your sisters and brothers, no matter how much you fight, you love them! I was like this with my sister, we fought so much but now, when I look at her I think that I'd be completely lost without her. Love others, love your family and friends and your pets. Everything around you but also love YOURSELF. 
You're given this one body, take care of it. Love every thing that is a part of you. It is perfectly normal to have insecurities, but lets be honest you are beautiful and there is NOTHING you should be insecure about. You are you, there is no one else out there that is you. Embrace it. Be body positive, be YOU positive. It honestly hurts me to see amazing people being insecure and full of self hatred. I feel like taking them out for coffee and talking to them, naming every beautiful thing about them. And giving them a big hug of course. 
So please, love others and tell them that every day, you never know when they might be gone. And love yourself, please. 

2. Be nice, have compassion.

Everyone is going/went through something that you might not know about please be nice. Even the people that are always smiling and laughing can be depressed, remember that.

3. Life is short. 

Life really is short. Laugh as loud as you can, love truly, forgive quickly, develop trust slowly and NEVER avoid something that makes you smile. Also, never regret doing something that made you happy. Even past relationships. You might not be with that person anymore but you were happy at the time, you smiled and laughed and loved. Never regret anything that made you happy. 
And if something is not making you happy do not be afraid to walk away from it. If you feel like you're not happy, something doesn't benefit you, or doesn't help you grow. Don't waste your time, move on. Don't live to make other people happy. For example your parents. You know it would make them happy if you became a doctor, but you want to be a fashion designer, don't go be a doctor! It is you that will have to be a doctor for the next 40 or 50 years of your life! If a doctor would make them happy, it might sound so rude but, why don't they go to school and become a doctor? You are the only person you will be with every day for the rest of your life. Do what makes you happy. Happiness is the most important thing in our lives. 

4. Encourage others.

Always be supportive of others. I have a friend that is thinking of a sex change. I know that it would make him happy, so I encourage him to do it. You want to dress like a girl for a day or two? It makes you happy? Do it! 
Be a loyal friend. Be a loyal girlfriend. Be a loyal wife! Why would you want to hurt the people that you love? 

6. Be honest. 

Always, always, ALWAYS be honest. No matter what it is about. Always be honest.

This is it for now, all that I can think of right now anyway. 
I just want to let all of you know that I am so so grateful for all of you. People who visit my blog every day, people who leave comments, people that watch my YouTube videos and leave feedback. I really am. 

As you're taking a breath right now, someone is taking their last, be thankful and appreciate. 

Much much love,